I am going out on a limb here to expose myself as an Compulsive Over Eater. I am ashamed and embarrassed. My mental quality of life is suffering, my body is suffering, my family and friends are suffering. I eat. For at least a couple hours. Cereal is NOT allowed in my house. Well a lot of things are not allowed in the house due to the fact that I will eat it in it's entirety if it is. Maybe I can work through this with the honesty of what i am doing.
What has lead to this?
1) I do not remember being taught how and what to eat. I do remember my parents always being in a state of either a diet or NOT.
2) People always seem to think that I am pregnant and ask me. Totally hurts me to the core. I am overly aware of my body in public because I feel like people are wondering if I am pregnant or not.
3) I have suffered mild depression through most of my life and recently the seriously HARSH postpartum depression. Now medicated and ok.
4) At times I have been seriously addicted to something. Almost two years ago I detoxed off my pain meds for my fibromyalgia. Very glad I did but I seem to have replaced them with food. :(
5) Even though I feel that I am equipped to deal with most of my daily feelings, there are so many that they are being suppressed. The moment I start to slow down my appetite turns ON.
6) I have no sensation of feeling full after I eat EVER!
I have been trying to finish my weight loss for the better part of 6 years. The pressure to stay under 180 is so exhausting. Fighting my mouth, head and belly is simply draining me.
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